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This is not a cop-out.
Pictures don’t make me happy or sad. I guess I’m not as much a visual person as I thought I was. Even the picture I posted two days ago makes me more content than happy. I’ve had this post page up for three hours now, trying to think of something, anything, that makes me angry or sad.
Pics just don’t do it for me. Now if you would have asked me for a song that makes me emotional in any way, it would have been super easy. Happy, sad, angry, motivated, angsty, lovesick, elated, anything. No problem.
Over two years ago, I asked the question would you rather be deaf or blind? Almost everyone that answered told me they would rather be deaf than blind, hands down. I was the odd one that would rather be blind, and this just confirms it. I couldn’t live without music and sound; it drives my very emotions, so much more than anything visual does. Which makes me question my love of design just a touch, but not overly so.
And on the subject, you should go watch It’s All Gone, Pete Tong (warning: British indie movie, drugs / sex / swearing ensues) which I saw just recently; it’s about a DJ who loses his hearing suddenly and makes me realize that I would go absolutely batshit-crazy without my ears!!
This post is part of the 30 Day Blogathon! Leaving a comment will surely help me complete this challenge!
I was talking to James yesterday and he told me that he had rediscovered xanga. I kind of mentally rolled my eyes at him; who needs that pre-myspace site when we (okay, so I) can have amazing and epic blogs of awesomeness? And Facebook??
I went back over there, just now. Yes, to xanga. To see what it’s like over there. And well, they’ve overhauled the main site quite a bit, and added lots of layout-y goodness. Hey, wonder if my account is still on there?
Oh yes. Both of them are. And I started rereading a few entries (I quit xanga right after camp 2005) and was really amazed how conversational I was back then.
I feel so formal on my amazing and epic blog of awesomeness. I want to rant and ramble about anything like I did back in the heyday of all the t-staters rampaging around xanga. Therefore I must, before I get sucked back into the world before Facebook.
I was talking to a girl I work with today; we’ll call her Cassandra. She was telling me that someone we worked with had just called her “Cassie” instead of Cassandra.
“It wouldn’t be so weird if it was someone who I knew better,” she said. “Most everyone calls me Cassandra; it was just strange that he called me Cassie because nobody uses it. It feels too familiar.”
“That’s odd,” I replied. “I’m the exact opposite.”
Which is true. Most everyone calls me “Mel” or even “Meli.” Very few people use my full name, Melanie, unless I’m in serious trouble. It’s strange to me when people use my full name, especially strangers, because it seems weirdly personal.
Which are you? Would you rather people use a full name when they speak to you, or a nickname?
I got rid of my physical address book today, deciding instead to store all of that information in both my Gmail account and my phone (Blackberry FTW). While I was making sure I had all the stuff I needed, I kept swinging by Facebook to make sure I had everyone’s information up to date.
This led to me going to the pages of a couple of people I hadn’t really seen or heard from in a while… and being kind of stalkerish and looking through their pictures. One of those people was Molly (HI MOLLY! I MISS YOU!), my old cohort from Hitherston. I wandered through a folder of her old digital art and was (re)blown away.
I remember when our web designs had sparkle and glitter and LIFE. Molly’s work was always especially magical… blue and green and otherwordly… but I remember my own designs having the same amount of LIFE to them. And look at my site now. It’s boring. It’s boxy. It’s GREY. Why??
I’m working on a website layout now for a site dealing with an Israel tour (more details on that later). I’m in Photoshop… playing with boxes. Corporate, boring, lifeless BOXES. Why? I have the power to make this a really interesting site. What’s stopping me? What’s holding me back?
Happy New Year! And Happy New Blog, too!
Last year I made two New Year’s resolutions, and it was the first time I seriously attempted this. The first was personal, but I’d like to say that it was a partial success. In fact… not a bad job.
The second one I did share last year, and it was a wish to get my life moving again. Specifically, go to college. My first, knee-jerk reaction is that I failed on this completely, but the more I reflect back on it, the more I realized that I didn’t completely fail. No, I’m not in college. No, I’m not really any closer to going to college. No, I haven’t even taken another online class.
But it seems like the more that I push for it, the more I feel something pushing back. I know it sounds like a cop-out, but I’m starting to believe that I’m not supposed to be there just yet, for whatever reason. I’ve been focusing a lot on my job, and you know what? In the last year, I’ve gotten a major promotion and a three-dollar pay raise. For my first job, that’s not too bad. I’m management now, working full time. I have insurance.
This leads me up to next year’s resolutions.
So, six things. We’ll see how this goes, okay?