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Happy New Year! And Happy New Blog, too!
Last year I made two New Year’s resolutions, and it was the first time I seriously attempted this. The first was personal, but I’d like to say that it was a partial success. In fact… not a bad job.
The second one I did share last year, and it was a wish to get my life moving again. Specifically, go to college. My first, knee-jerk reaction is that I failed on this completely, but the more I reflect back on it, the more I realized that I didn’t completely fail. No, I’m not in college. No, I’m not really any closer to going to college. No, I haven’t even taken another online class.
But it seems like the more that I push for it, the more I feel something pushing back. I know it sounds like a cop-out, but I’m starting to believe that I’m not supposed to be there just yet, for whatever reason. I’ve been focusing a lot on my job, and you know what? In the last year, I’ve gotten a major promotion and a three-dollar pay raise. For my first job, that’s not too bad. I’m management now, working full time. I have insurance.
This leads me up to next year’s resolutions.
So, six things. We’ll see how this goes, okay?
At the beginning of November 2005, I joined this website where you could create a time capsule of sorts to be sent to you a certain amount of time later. I filled mine out, and set it to three years; it would come to me at the end of October 2008, a date that seemed so far into the future that I was sure to forget about it. Well, I did. Thankfully, though, the email I used for mine is one I still use to sign up for things so I don’t get a bunch of spam in my normal email. I needed to duck into there for a confirmation email one day, and saw this sitting up near the top.
Today I opened it. I’m not going to post the entire thing because some parts are kind of personal, but a lot of it was a pretty interesting look into who I was and to who I hoped to become.
Current
Age: eighteen
height: five six – ish
status: single and not looking… too much.
hobbies: web and graphic design, blogging, writing, crochet, sewing, DANCE
The basics haven’t changed, except now I’m 21 and don’t have time for the crocheting and the sewing very often. I don’t dance as much as I think I used to, either… which makes me kinda sad. (more…)
I’ve never had a New Year’s resolution before. Well… I think I had one once in high school, and I think it was to not have a resolution. They just seemed silly to me, like a list of promises that you pretty much just jinxed yourself into not keeping. For the most part, they still do.
I’ve got a couple this year… two, actually. They’re not silly promises I don’t really want to keep (like “I resolve to suddenly become a vegetarian”) or couldn’t keep no matter how hard I tried (like “I resolve to blog once a day, every day for a year” or “I resolve to keep my room shiny clean until 2009″). No, these are actually… attainable.
The first one, I can’t share. It’s a wee bit embarrassing, actually, and pretty personal. I’ll gladly leave you in the dark on that one.
The second one is one that I should have made… well, ages ago. This is the one I really want to check up on in a year, to make sure I’ve done what I said to do. I want to get my life moving again.
I’m almost twenty-one. I need to get up, get moving, and start living. Carpe diem and all of that. I need to get my license. I need a car. I’d love to go back to school. I’d love to get out and just do things, be someone besides an extension of what I used to be. I’ve got an entire year… and an entire lifetime. I don’t want to just be taking up space anymore. I want to do whatever it is that I’ve been put here to do… and do it wholeheartedly. Whatever that means — whatever it takes.